M.I.A
(Missing In Action)
lately and you know what I needed a break! I got pretty depressed this past 2 weeks to the point where I stopped going to work and didn't even leave the house for a whole week. I just curled up on the couch in my PA Onesie and cried all day!
But that spurred me on and I picked myself up and decided that I didn't want to be this little miss sorry for herself! and I ran with it. I know I need help with my weight loss, I am just not seeing the results that I should be seeing with all my gym and eating right.
Well I called the doctors and I booked myself in to speak with someone about gastric banding, specifically a Lap Band. Now I know a lot of people out in the weight loss blogasphere are negative about this sort of procedure and I have to admit I was a little unsure about the whole thing until I saw my mother recieve one 2 years ago.
My mother has been big my whole life, she has struggled with her weight greatly and I know how much she used to suffer with self hate but she made the decision to get a lap band and over 2 years she has gone from around 100kgs to 65kgs a extremely dramatic weight loss but she has done it slowly and healthily. I have never seen my mother as happy as I have seen her over the past 2 years and I know she puts it all down to the weight loss and the lapband.
Now I had a appointment on Monday and I am a perfect candidt for weight loss surgery I just need my kidney specialist to sign off on it and we will be good to go. However I am terrified that my specialist will tell me to work harder and get off my arse! BUT THAT'S JUST IT I AM! I see my trainer all the time its getting to the point that I am having financial difficulties because I am seeing him so much and have to pay SO MUCH for gym!
I know that if I conbined the lap band with my current gym routine I would become healthy and in the end that's all its really about! My 1 year Kidney anniversary is coming up next Friday 8th June and its time that I fix my weight and start living life to the fullest!
I really want kids in the next couple of years and being such a heavy weight makes me worry that I will be unable to get pregnant and even if I do I want to be a positive role model for my children and I wish for all of us to be healthy.
Well that's enough about me and why I have been absent, I have another post about where I am in my wedding planning stages but I will post later.Love You all
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